Who Am I Living For? - Katy Perry

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I can feel the pheonix inside of me

As I march alone to a different beat

Slowly swallowing down my fear

Yeah, yeah

I am ready for the road less travelled

Suiting up for my crowning battle

This is test is my own cross to bear

But I will get there

It's never easy to be chosen 

Never easy to be called

Standing on the front line

When the bombs start to fall

I can see heavens 

But I still hear the flames

Calling out my name

I can see the writing on the wall

I can't ignore this war

At the end of it all

Who am I living for

I can feel this light that's inside of me

Growing fast into a bolt of lightning

I know one spark will shock the world

Yeah, yeah

So I pray for favor like Esther

I need your strength to handle the pressure 

I know there will be sacrifice

But that's the price

It's never easy to be chosen

Never easy to be called

Standing on the front line

When the bombs start to fall

I can see heaven

But I still hear the flames

Calling out my name

I can see the writing on the wall

I can't ignore this war

At the end of it all

Who am I living for

Heavy is head that wears the crown

Don't let the greatness get you down

Oh yeah

I can see the writing on the wall

I can't ignore this war

At the end of it all

Who am I living for

***

Parasite

I don't need you.
I think you are the one that is being dependent to me.
Will you ever, even one millisecond think that I'll be better OFF you?
Maybe my life will be better without you.
Don't you think so?
I certainly did.

I don't need to wake up seeing your text messages.
That will ruin my day.
Just like it did today.
Awesome!
I don't need another problem in my life as if I am not having any problem in my life.

Maybe you are caring and you care of me.
But please, I don't need people to treat me like a baby.
Maybe I DO need someone to treat me like a baby.
But please, I'm very positive that the ONE is NOT YOU.

I think I made it very clear here.

I feel like blocking your cellphone number this morning.
But I didn't.
That will be rude.
But bugging me when I literally asked you not to?
Don't say I didn't warn you.

Psst!
Huge tips for you: STAY AWAY FROM A GIRL THAT JUST BROKE UP!

That one day that I hate

Which is today.

Date: 4th October 2012
Venue: Manipal, Karnataka, India.
Unfortunate event:

1. Stomach ache in such early morning (just like when I'm 10 years old)
2. Almost late to class.
3. Ran out of breath while climbing up to 4th floor using stairs humming Part of Me by Katy Perry.
4. Being depressed and unable to concentrate during lecture class after bad broke up yesterday night.
5. Being more depressed because I miss him.
6. The huge amount of money for hostel fee haven't reached my bank account after 6 days.
7. Having my very first Pathology PBL brainstorming. 
8. Suck-y PBL lecturer.
9. Have no appetite to eat lunch (due to suck-y break up)
10. Not knowing what is my bank account number.
11. Feeling sad to realized that my dad forgotten the steps to bank-in money for me.
12. Talked loudly in public trying to make the amount of money magically appears in my bank account.
13. Talked loudly to my mom because of the amount of money. 
14. Hate the fact that I talked rudely to my mom just because of money.

Fortunate event:

1. Aloo parota or Carrot parota for breakfast.
2. Being able to meet my friend for breakfast.
3. Lecturer did not ask me question.
4. Able to eat something during lunch.
5. Asked for extra fry bittergourd and they gave me! =D
6. Have a very good friend that did me a HUGE favor that settled my hostel fee problem. 
7. Finally settled hostel fees.
8. Saved my dad by being my mom's nagging tonight (greatest achievement)
9. Super grateful for those nice people around me.
10. Had a long bath that I've been longed for. 
11. Washed my labcoat. 
12. I'm feeling hungry - means I have appetite - means I'm gonna eat - means I'm no longer depress. 

I should really get going. I'm really hungry. 

The day might start okay, but I'm very grateful that it ended up okay or good instead! 

All time feelings: ok-good-depress-bad-bad-worst-ok-good

Overall feelings: grateful and happy and HUNGRY.