A quitter

Being a quitter my whole life. Well, maybe not my WHOLE life. Being a quitter since 5, I'm so use to escaping from problems. When things gets tough, I'll just turn my head and walk away. This is much more easier to do when I'm young. Time flies and unfortunately I grow up and I still like to run away from problems in life. It's just seems to be an easier way out. But, the elder you get, the bigger responsibility you have and this makes quitting real hard. It's no longer quitting an art class or a ballet lesson. If I quit studying in Medicine school, what will be my occupation? I just can't quit Med school like I quit everything in my life. But staying in Med school and getting to know those smart-ass people are really a pain in the ass.

What should I do? Should I quit like always, or stick to this course and well, maybe challenge myself so that I can be a better person?

Doing something you don't like is really not fun. But I don't want to let my parents down.
What if, what if, what if.
Just because this post will be read by people all around the world, I'll tell you this. I won't quit for now.

I won't guarantee that I won't quit in the future, but I'm certain that I won't quit for now.
But let me remind you this, I longer you hang onto your problem, when a bigger problem comes, you won't feel like quitting because you've overcome the previous problem.
I hope the sentence make sense to you.

Oh well, screw those negative thoughts. Lets focus on how to make tomorrow a better day. Although I claim that I don't know anything and that my calvaria is empty, deep down, I know that it's not empty and I might know at least 20% about what's happening in this course.

So, to make some easy calculation, if I know 20% of my course objective, I need to study 30% more in order to pass. If I read my class notes only, that will give me 40%. There there, 60% that's not a bad score!

Oh, for those that don't know what I get for my Block 1 exam, I got 51, 53, 49, 67 for Pathology, Pharmacology, Microbiology and Forensic Medicine.
P/s: Passing mark is 50.

After letting the world know that I'm not as dumb as I thought I might be, I feel much more better and I'm now feeling happy and hungry.

I LOVE YOU READERS OUT THERE THAT ARE STILL READING MY BLOG ALTHOUGH IT'S ALWAYS FULL OF CRAP AND IT STILL IS.

XOXO

I'm scared

I'm scared. It seems that I don't know anything about Pathology, Microbiology and Pharmacology. Not to mention I haven't read a thing about Forensic medicine.
I tried reading but I can't remember. I am so scared and I don't want to border line pass again. If this continues, I will fail my second year of MBBS. I certainly don't want that to happen.
Who wished to fail in the exam?
Well, certainly not me.

I'm freaking out right now. I don't know what to do. There's so much to read and I am constantly feeling sleepy and tired. I'm born lazy. I'm trying! I'm trying! Let's wait and see what will happen in the future. But right now, I'm freaking out.

I feel that I'm so super dumb. I'm scared.

I had a bad dream

I dreamt about a black shadow extending he's hand towards me.
It's a he, I'm sure of it.
This dream lasted for only 2 second.
The end. :)

My first ever bad dream in Manipal. Thanks to mom that watched haunted movie in the middle of the night.

Relationship i don't get

i don't know why would you want to start a relationship that you know that it will end.
i don't understand why you breakup and yet you still misses each other.
i don't get why don't you all get back together since obviously you still cares about each other.

Back to blogging?

I'm very tired of reading books lately. So I will stick to my laptop very often. Hopefully only for this week. Because if I stop reading books, I will fail my exams. I'm trying to replace me textbooks by using online studying website.

I found one. Khanacademy.
But that's a video watching one. Not a reading one. The video one is better because if I read, I'll feel sleepy and there goes my day.

Had food poisoning yesterday and vomited. After you learn Anatomy, you can totally relate to what happens to your body. Even vomiting! I'm glad that my body reacted to all the microorganisms present in my food. And the effort my body made to get rid of them.

I'm gonna spend more time with my laptop this week. I hope I'll be happy. :)

Wish you had a wonderful time too.

No misunderstanding

I'm acting or behaving exactly the way I want.
There's no misunderstanding here.
I don't live my life to please you.
Peace out.

Girls talk

Spend time with some friends and have some invisible pillow talk. 

With cake slices and a few cups of tea. 

Someday, if you found someone that love you enough, they will do anything anything they could to just see you, talk to you, spend time with you. That is so sweet. Condition only applies if you love that person in return. We don't want things to get stalker like or annoying right? ;D

I know I haven't been blogging much lately but I need a break from blogging or providing information about my well being to people that I don't want to share this piece of information to. 

But I chose to not let someone I dislike influence my action. So I'm still gonna do the things that I want. :)

Haven't been having a talk like this for months. It's good maybe, perhaps, but the more you know me, the weirder I'll get. The more you know me, the more you know that I didn't really work that hard for the things that I've achieved. 

I don't want you to get jealous about me in the end. But I'm just being me. Plain lazy. 

I need a break from your face

I hate you. No offense.

Skype with bff

You eat pizza, I eat plain bread.
You have trisome and I'm masturbating.
You have all the fun and I'm all the way here.
It is so unfair and your fart smells so bad.

-You belong with me-

I love Thursdays.

Pros:-

1. YouTubers will upload videos on Thursday.
2. They serve nasi kandar in Cheff Inn.
3. Thursday means the week is coming to an end. 
4. If I don't have PBL and Clinical skills, my class will end at 10am. (Only one hour class!)

Cons:-

1. You are worn out after preparing for all the SDLs and PBL presentation.
2. If you have PBL and Clinical Skills, class will end at 5pm. 

The only cons on Thursdays are you have more studies to do. 

Other than that, Thursdays = FREEDOM!