I am not a doctor... yet

I don't feel like I'm a doctor. I don't act like a doctor. I don't think like a doctor. I am not a doctor.
I'm 20% closer to be a doctor. But I am not yet a doctor.
I'm scared. I'm confused. I'm lazy. I don't care how funny this post will be when I look back after 5 years but I'm here to say that I'm scared.

I'm not a doctor yet. Will I be one? Can I be one?
#pray

I'm an obedient daughter that live my dad's dream.
I'm just a good student that live my teachers' dream.
I'm just living my life for the one that I''m respecting.

Being a doctor is not my dream.
And that's it.
I'm dead.
I'm doomed.

But I'll change my mind set as I'm moving along this course.
It's not the end... yet.