Love

I don’t own a love life. I might want one after watching “What’s your number”. I’m not happy with myself either. I want to be single and I want to be in a relationship. This doesn’t make any sense for guys. Perhaps. But I totally understand why I wanted to be both single and in a relationship.

I want to be single for the freedom and availability.

I want to be in a relationship because I want the romances and kisses or hot, HOT sexes.

But I can’t get the best of both worlds for now. I’m still a student. And in my culture, student don’t usually enjoy hot, HOT sexes. I’m 100% financially depending on my parents. Unless my readers actually did click the advertising button and make me earn money by blogging. :o

So, I wanted someone to love me. I feel empty. But I’m not THAT  pretty. I’m being picky. Tiny eyes… Too short… Too smart… Too dumb… Pimples… Scar on the face… but nobody is prefect right? I need to quite being picky and open up to the upcoming options.

Juniors…  batch mates… seniors… I don’t know. But sometimes, I can really be desperate.

That’s the effect of watching movies. Because life is NOT LIKE A MOVIE. Sometimes, I just can’t help to hope that my life is just like a movie with HAPPY ENDINGS. Excuse me for that. :x

That’s it. I’m doomed. I’m single, with no income, and alone. I’m not attractive. No guys like me. I’m just alone. I can still bear with it. This life. This lonely and empty love life life. I can do this. For now.