You are so stressed up.
I don't get why you hate yourself.
I have my own problems too.
Don't assume that I'm perfect. I'm not.
Don't think that I have everything I need. I don't.
You have things that I don't have.
You have thing that I wanted to have.
And yet you don't know about it.
I envy you.
I envy you because he saw you but not me.
He will like me for being me.
I don't need to try to impress him.
I'll be comfortable around him.
He won't object much about what I do or what am I going to do.
I just want to find a guy that like me for being me.
I'm in India. I don't have the slightest idea about what is happening in LA now. But I sure now X factor fans will have a very tough job to decide which one to vote for. Will you vote for Fifth harmony, Tate Stevens or Carly Rose Sonenclar? All of them are so good. I'm glad that I'm not an US citizen or else I need to crack my head to figure out this one. xP
Back to topic. If you are afraid that the world will end tomorrow, then do the things that you want to do before you die. Spend the last hour on earth with your love ones, your friends, Skype if you are staying far apart, call them, tell them that you love them! Because that is what matters.
For me, this is how I spend my "last day on earth".
Watch 2012
Express all my feelings out on my blog and twitter
Eat good food
Bathe (I want to be clean when the ceiling fall on me)
I want my heart to feel peace. So I'm not planning to lay hand on any textbooks
Sit on my bed and wait for the world to end
That's what I've been doing. And that's my plan.
I will wake up tomorrow (if there's still a tomorrow) and still go to class because there's classes going on.
Life goes on.
I don't know when will the world be ending.
But I'll hope and pray that people won't suffer that much when that's happening.
I don't like to talk to pathetic people because they carries negative qi.
I don't like to talk to spies because they are spying on you.
Don't come talk to me expecting you will know more about me.
I'll just give you a "ghost-like-appearance" answer and ignore you like I always does.
You are nothing special.
Now readers, are you impress about the power of my eyebrows?
To know what is the relation of my eyebrow and my love life, go read my previous post. I forgot when was it. It will either be on October. I can't find it.
For anyone that is interested to know the whole story, go read and get bored.
To prove that I really don't have feelings towards you anymore. Maybe a little, like 7%?
But I really am not fluttered having you sitting right in front of my with a hand in between me and Jojo. :)
I do feel uncomfortable because I am so tired and I don't really feel like talking.
I won't talk when I am tired. Because I AM really tired! Common, I just finished my Block 1 yesterday. -.-
We just finished Block 1 YESTERDAY! For God's sake. Give me a break.
We are not friends, yet.
I don't know. It's just I don't feel the same way anymore.
I knew that this day will come. Because my wishes always do come true. It's just the matter of time.
I wished for this last year. And it happened. A year later.
Look where am I now? I don't have feelings towards you anymore.
So... I don't know.
For my dear readers that are "concern" about my "love life", I don't like lamb or sheep either.
I know that I'm complicated.
But I need just one thing to get over someone.
For me, getting over someone is not a tough task.
I just need a new target or something to do in my life.
My new target is awkward. OMG.
I can't believe I'm choosing him over you.
But hey! I found a reason to dislike you! LOL!!!
But I will never get together with awkward. So yea. Pfft.
Anyways, I have someone more important to stalk in my life, which happens to be awkward at this timee of my life.
This is the funniest part. Jojo mention about awkward's roll number.
And you said that awkward is living next door right beside your room?
My mind just flew right over to knowing more about awkward and not paying attention in whatever you and Jojo are talking about. Lmao.
Block 1 exam have killed my December joy.
The worst will be over one day and it will.
Exam is finally over. OMG, YES!
So I''m blogging again. But there's really a lot to cover, and read, and self-study in 2nd year of MBBS. So, I better stick my ass on my chair and not fail my exams again. I'm so gonna fail 3 of my subjects. I'll let you know the marks even. I suck in exam because I procrastinate too much! -.- So predictable. I'm super lazy and I hate to realize the fact that I need to start reading. -.-
Right after my Block 1 exam, which happens yesterday, my Block 2 starts today! Unlike other colleges or Universities that have at least one DAY break after exams.
Plus my second block sitting position is the FRONT row!!!!! Oh no!!!!! c:
I just hope and pray that every thing goes well in this remaining December. Please remember, remember December. Don't surrender. #demilovato #rememberdecember
It sucked. Everyone hates it. Everyone is sad after the exam. Just great. The paper is so tough! Please don't mention anything about the practical part please. Each and every part of the paper seems impossible. This is just crazy. Bye bye microbe. I never knew you were THAT impossible.
Guess, I'm done wearing all the clothes in my closet. (No, not really)
I still have some T-shirts, socks, blouse and dresses left.
But I can't be wearing dresses everywhere I go right?
It took me 29 days to wear all the clothes in my closet once. It's great! I never noticed that my outfit can last that long. 29 days is almost one month. No one will really remember what you for last MONTH right? Wow... That's good! That's great! No more shopping for new clothes! ;)
This have been a very wonderful experience and I hope you all will do it too! By doing this, you can know what is actually in your closet, you can try out new look, actually, I did try out two clothes combination that I've never tried before (which is good). Most importantly, you know what you don't like to wear and those, you should either GIVE it to someone, or just KEEP it for your future daughter. I think giving it to someone will be a better option right? #12DOK http://yes-its-my-blog.blogspot.in/2012/12/12-days-of-kindness.html
I feel that it's really nice for girls to reorganize our closet because for me, I'll never know what I have and what I don't have in my closet. When I go shopping, I'll just be like, "Oh! That's cute, and cheap too!" BOUGHT. Then, I'll happily wash all the new clothes that I just bought, or if I'm too tired, I'll just put them aside and just remember about them after 2 months. (Yes, that's how dirty my room are) DON'T JUDGE ME.
So DONATE! Those clothes that you can't wear it anymore because you gained weight, or you lose weight, or it's out fashioned, or the color faded, or it's too dirty, or it turned yellow, etc.
Give it to someone that need it more than you!
I gave a school teacher my Brass band uniform because I will never ever wear that outfit again. Why am I still keeping while I'm in college? I don't get it. I gave that outfit away after my first year is MBBS. Can you believe that? I kept that thing for 2 years! Tsk tsk tsk...
So, this is my feedback on Operation 1 that have been successfully completed. I'm super glad that I did this. I'll definitely do this more often. Just that I won't tell anyone that much about it. But yes, after this, I'll actually try to wear all those socks, T-shirts, dresses and that one blouse that I left. :)
Hooray to success. When I look back into this blog, I'll remember what meaningful little things that I did.
Doing Good is Contagious.
Let's join hand, join blog, join G+, join mind, and make this world a better place. :D
Well, I have some good news today because after annual day, which is an event that took part yesterday night. I checked my stalker list again and guess what?
Number 27 became Number 12 today!
I'm happy because at least he dropped by my Facebook and viewed my picture. -.-
Remember that I failed my first Microbiology class test? I passed my second Microbiology class test by 7%. Which is apparently not enough.
The "great" news is Microbiology block exam is finally here. T_T
And apparently I know nothing about Microbiology!!!!!!
I don't know how to answer those freaking questions.
I'm so gonna die... ... ...
Who knows how cornyebacteria transfer their gene? -.-
I assume that I must know the answer before the exam starts.
You know what's awkward?
I actually know your exes. (Yes, more than one.)
Both of them are my friend.
Both of them are prettier than me.
Not that I am jealous, but I don't think you can stand my crazy attitude.
I remember how you use to torture your girlfriends by making them your slave.
Well, not the second ex, but you did make her do the things you want didn't you?
You enjoy the chase. Only the chase. ;)
This are the ones that I want to be! :) *littlecartoonfan*
Powerpuff girls - Bubbles!
Totally spies - Clover
Tinkle bell the movie - the water fairy. Urgh... what's her name? SILVERMIST! (I Googled)
Mickey mouse clubhouse's character - Donald!
Winnie the Pooh - Piglet
Pocoyo - Sleepy bird!
Pororo - Crong (I Googled for the right spelling)
Disney Princess - Belle
I can't think of other cartoon characters. *mindblock*
Tom and Jerry - I'll be Jerry's nephew that walks around with my pampers on. The grey one. :)
Spongebob Square Pants - I don't really like Spongebob but I'll chose to be Spongebob perhaps?
Jimmy Neutron - Cindy. Duh...
Shrek - Gingerbread man. Nope, not Puss in Boots. ;)
That's all I can think of. :P
If you wanna know my choice of character of some other show, leave a comment and I'll reply to your comment!
In the box on the upper right corner, type "orderedfriends"
Press enter
Copy the numbers (i.e. 100000573862)
Paste them behind www.facebook.com/
Surprisingly, this is top 40.
I've been doing some stalking to find out who is my stalker. Oh yes. :)
My mom
NBJ
A
Jojo
Llsl
L
Leader S
SP
C
R
Jane
M (that annoying one)
Niv
Kams
Blur S
KY
Desk mate L
M (my best friend)
My neighbor from my hometown
Sumi
Miss Jessica
Deb
Chloe
Shien Lin ??!! wow...
Siti
Li Kang
i-Van
Dhan
Fina
Dhar
Div
Nish
Rdee
K
Pri
Brother's gf
Alicia
U
Desk mate A
PLY
Sometimes, stalker makes you sick. But this time, you can know that who cared about you! My top 20 is my real close friends. Except for PLY (40) which is apparently too busy with her students. -.-
But is you see that someone that you equally care about stalk you, it's WARM!
I can't help to share this because it's really hard not to share something good.
This December, I'll be joining #12DOK - 12 days of kindness act inspired by the Jubilee Project.
It's easy.
Remember the a photo a May project?
Here's comes a December project.
Plus, it's not for 31 days continuously.
It's just for 12 days. So why not?
Let's make this world a better place by showing that you care.
Aries never miss a thing.
I know that you are staring at my boobs.
I know that you saw me staring at other people's boobs.
Anyways, we both love to look at beautiful things.
Your eyes will flow to wherever my eyes flow to.
Including when I am looking at those two guys.
You will never succeed by walking into my life.
Let's see who wins this competition as Aries loves to win.
I bet that you will never win my heart.
The end.
I'm not gonna blog that much since Block 1 exam is around the (invisible) corner.
I'll still post something, just not as much.
Normally I'll post thrice daily, but during this period, maybe I'll post 1/2 post per day? (Two days once)
I'll be back after my exams which will be around... 20 December?
Be patient my dear dear readers. :)
I never know that I like December that much.
When I'm younger, December is just another month for me to kill time doing nothing in the house.
But after I'm in college, I start spending time with friends in beautifully decorated shopping malls, Christmas musics playing all over, lots of candies and lots of special moment together with my love ones.
This is the second December I will ever spend in India. Last year's December, we did Christmas caroling speaking of Christmas, it's time for me to wash the Christmas hat. xD
This year's December, it's a very much anticipated one. I don't know what will happen this December, but my sister's birthday is in December and her birthday began to make sense because she start asking what she want during her birthday. She's old enough to understand the significance of celebrating a birthday.
Let's do Christmas caroling again. This Christmas. Hmm... I miss candy canes. :D
I'm just very very excited for this upcoming December.
Here's my December playlist! <3
Mistletoe
Last Christmas
Back to December
Remember December (only when you need a loud music)
Once upon a December
May everyone have a blessed December and a good time preparing for Christmas.
Oh well, here comes another Class test. I failed my first Microbiology class test very badly. I hate myself for that. It even gave me depression that last for 2 weeks. -.-
Fail - feeling stupid - depressed.
But I'm alright now. It's been one and a half month since the last test. :)
Unlike Year one MBBS, the class tested that they construct is based on our SDL topic. That is why I failed my first class test. I didn't read. It's was 100% my fault. I know, but I'm still depressed. Haha!
Tomorrow is the Class test, I've been sleeping, eating, Youtube video watching and blogging (never forget about Tweeting). I'll start studying soon.
No matter how determine I wanted to strive and work hard, I will never be hard working enough. It's kind of like a me fact, I won't torture myself.
I'm procrastinating as I don't want to start reading any books. I don't want to read anything at all!
As I'm a huge fan of Youtube, thanks to all the Youtubers that make interesting videos, I can't tolerate boredom.
I'm so used to click to another Youtube video is that particular video in Youtube.
But there's no clicking away in real life.
I'll just have to keep my eyes open and wait for the lecture to end. o_o
Today is a very significant day.
I actually understand PHARMACOLOGY a little more, thanks to the amazing HOD of Pharmacology from MMMC. (kiss ass)
I danced in front of lamb, there's more to come right? ;D
I held his hand. :O Yes, my job is to pull a big fat buffalo up. Of course I can do that, I use to pull my mom up. -.- (Are you kidding me? I'm stronger than you thought.)
Have lunch with more Chinese and talked about what type of guys I like. #girlstalk
Noticed that there's a guy that want to know who am I fond to. #spy
Found my ex-crushes Twitter account!
Mom is gonna hand in her resignation letter tomorrow!
Skype with my parents today. (I'm too lazy to on Skype nowadays but today is an exception)
Slept and feel refreshed. (until now)
Jojo parceled KFC for me for my dinner! I have such great friend.
Watched The Suite Life movie
...
I think there's more about today but I'm feeling a bit bored of listing down all this things that I'm grateful of today. So yea, that's about it.
So you like to fool around like a clown.
It makes you less attractive.
Acting like a fool don't impress me.
I know that you don't want to impress me anyways.
Being to spend time together with you used to be my dream.
But I'm all grown up and I'm "strong" now.
I don't need you.
But I do enjoy your attention. ;)
I don't fool around like you.
I don't fool around with other guys like you do with other girls.
I don't feel comfortable doing that.
I don't do that.
If you are trying not to impress me, it totally worked.
If you are trying to make me get over you, it's helping.
This post is not about a post that I want you back or something.
I just wanna make a note that today, we danced.
Found my ex-crush on Twitter.
Thank God for social media.
I don't like him anymore, but I sure miss seeing him around.
He is so cute and smart.
He is so shy and quiet.
Nice seeing you around, I'll smile reading your tweets.
No matter how much you care, I will NEVER like you.
You are not on my list
You are on my NOT TO DATE list.
Which makes it impossible to date you.
Plus, I am not attracted to you at all.
Maybe a little, but no, I won't date you.
You must know this fact well enough right?
It's so obvious that we can't be together.
It's a huge NO NO.
No matter how much you "upgrade" yourself, I will not like you.
I'm feeling sorry for you because it's impossible.
I hope you'll find someone soon.
You like me because there's no other girl to like in our class.
That's pretty much about it.
Why not consider about your ex-girlfriend?
You guys still do care about each other right?
Oh, btw, liking what I like doesn't mean that I will like you back.
Watching Youtube videos won't make me like you.
Just so you know.
P/s: Don't try too hard. We are NEVER gonna get together.
11 Dec 2012 is my Block 1 Year 2 MBBS examination in Manipal.
Tsk. I don't know what to do.
Actually, everyone started studying or at least doing something.
What am I doing?
I'm blogging my heart out.
There's 4 subjects in 2nd year of MBBS. (I think I'd mention quite a few times about this)
1. Pathology
2. Microbiology
3. Pharmacology
4. Forensic Medicine
For Pathology, read Underwood.
Microbiology, read Levinson, Anantharayanan (something like that) and one more, oh, MIMS!
Pharmacology, thank God, only one textbook, Tripathi.
Forensic Medicine, I haven't even get my textbook for this subject. Shall get it soon. ><
So that's it. A lot to read. but sometimes, you just won't have the mood to read, YOU KNOW THAT?
Do you UNDERSTAND the feeling?
You need to read but you just can't bare the books?
So yes, keep reading people.
And so your ex-girlfriend is still into you. Of course, you haven't forgotten your ex-girlfriend either. But you are ready to move on. And you miss being in a relationship.
I wish the best to both of you. I miss seeing both of you together.
So why not get back together?
Ex-couples are so complicated.
Like this post if you agree!
Today we met again. It's been two weeks since I last saw you. I miss you.
Again, we are trying to walk in the same line. But you are too far ahead and I'm too tired to walk faster. I did walk faster in the end. But still we can't make it. :(
It's okay, at least we tried. Plenty of next time right?
And so I heard that Aries won't miss a thing.
Everything is under their "radar" and they know about what is going on.
So today, he saw me greeting him. And I don't greet. So I think he knows that I like him.
Sorry to let you know the ugly truth but yes, I have feelings for him and not for you.
I'm not sorry for not liking you.
I'm sorry for letting you know me not liking you by this way.
You'll keep quiet and deal with your feelings right?
You are strong. I'm sure you will.
You have so much EXPERIENCES. ;)
I eat whenever I feel hungry.
If I'm too lazy, I'll dig all over my room to search for food.
I'm sick of ordering delivery because I did that too often.
Sometimes, I prefer eating vegetarian food.
Sometimes, I prefer eating lots of meat.
It depends on my mood.
Usually, I'll eat anything that can be eaten.
I don't like to feel hungry.
No one likes to fell hungry. -.-
If I want to stay slim, I'll eat fruits after 9am if I''m hungry.
Other time of the day, I'll just eat. And eat. Until I feel full.
What the hell did I do on Youtube for such a long time?
Well, I watched a 4 hour long movie.
Les Miserables! Are you guys proud of me, finally, something beneficial. xD
After watching the movie, I went to watch their 25th anniversary concert. Which is great and touching and grand and mind-blowing!
You all should totally watch it! Well, for those that liked opera and orchestra, go ahead and watch this if you haven't watched it. :)
I'm suppose to type the synopsis but I'm just too lazy. I'm sorry for my laziness. ><
It's because I don't know the spelling of the characters! T_T
Oh well, I'll try again. =.=
Jean Valjean, a convict served in a prison in Touton for 19 years.
Javert, the inspector has been looking all over for him after he's been released.
Jean Valjean can't find a job because he is an ex-convict. :(
He went to a house of a priest to rest from the tiring journey, then the kind priest treated him like a brother, but Jean needs money, so he stole the silverware from the priest and ran away.
The next day, the housekeepers noticed about the missing silverware. The priest are not furious, not a bit.
When two police officer arrest Jean and bring him to the priest's house, the priest said that he is the one that gave the silverware to Jean.
He added two candle handler to Jean's bag.
The priest said that he has bought Jean's soul. And now, he will use the silverware wisely and be a new man.
Jean did his best to live a new life in another town. Ma... (something) =.=
He did huge amount of good deeds. Then, he was called the Mayor of the town.
Then, there was one day when Fantine was about to get arrested because she insulted a young man in public.
Here's when Jean came out and break the law of police and insisted in not getting Fantine arrested.
(This thing is getting boring, WTH...)
Fantine has a daughter name Cosette. She lives in an inn with the Thenardiers. Thenardiers' eldest daughter name is Eponine.
Fantine died, Jean swore to take care of Cosette. Jean, took his money with him, went to search for Cosette.
By that time, Javert is still searching and wanting to arrest Jean.
Years goes by, Cosette was now a lady.
Jean and Cosette live in Paris.
Cosette met Marius, a handsome young man that is equally in love with her.
Marius is living next door to the Thenardiers. (What a small world)
Eponine was in love with Marius as Marius treat her well and is very kind to her.
But Marius heart belonged to Cosette. (So cheesy)
Then, Marius fought for some revolution thinggy in Paris, Jean saved him by bringing him back to he's house. (J brings M back to M's house)
THEN, Cosette and Marius get married. Jean can't attend the wedding because he is a refugee.
Jean told the truth about himself to Marius. The truth that he is an ex-convict and all those drama, asking him not to tell Cosette as it will break her heart. Bla bla blah...
Marius thought Jean is a bad guy. Little that he know Jean didn't not kill Javert when he has the chance to. He also don't know that Jean was the one that brought him back to his house from the barricade.
Then... ... ... erm, Marius brought Cosette to go visit her dad. Jean is dying. Marius apologizes, all Cosette did is ask Jean not to die. Finally, Jean died.
THE END.
Oh yeah! And Javert commit suicide because he is guilty of tracking down Jean after so many years and make his life so uneasy as Jean was a good guy.
Now, THE END.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Les_Mis%C3%A9rables
See? How much I love my readers. I actually Googled about it. -.-
Love you guys. Thanks for reading, I'm just sharing.
I wear shoes in my room because the floor is cold. I don't like stepping on an icy cold floor. The tiles are keeping my room in a comfortable temperature but it's making the floor so cold.
Yes, I wear shoes in my room. Mostly flip-flops. :)
No matter how I wanted my room to stay clean, it won't.
Dust will be everywhere. They said 97% of the dust found in the room is dead skin.
So, dead skin will be everywhere. On the table... Bed... Floor... Window... EVERY FREAKING WHERE!
And no matter how hard I try to keep all the surface clear, they won't.
Table - Full of textbooks, pencil case, sticky notes?! , supplement, pens, color pens, pencils. Stationaries everywhere!
Bed - I'm always on it, my pillows (two of them), blanket, water bottle, novel (never read it because I'm busy with my laptop), and lastly, my laptop!
Floor - Laundry bag, chair, packaging of my food. =/
My room is so untidy! I can't do anything about it. I must have a bag place for my bags. A clothes place for the clothes that I'm gonna wear again. (i.e. jeans, pants, lab coats, etc.)
That's pretty much about it.
My room is so untidy and I'm upset about it.
Not really upset but I don't my room being untidy.
People don't know me well enough.
People don't dare want to come talk to me because I am boring.
People don't bother to talk to me because I know nothing.
She is your friend.
That's why you said that she is FAT.
She is your friend.
That's why you said that she stinks.
She is your friend.
That's why you said that her eyes are small.
All that mean things that you said to her is not about you being a jerk.
It's about you see it in your eyes, you cared, and you made the effort to just fool around with her.
My friends will be happy for me if I get into a relationship.
They'll think, "FINALLY! That freak have a boyfriend"
I'm sorry, friends, you all must have to wait for quite some time because no one in the world that I'm in right now like me and wanted to boyfriend.
So yea, just wait okay?
Wait patiently, just like what I'm doing now.
;D
According to wikipedia, Thanksgiving is celebrated on each 4th Thursday of November in the States and each 2nd Monday of October in Canada.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanksgiving
As you all know, I'm crazy about Youtube videos.
Below are some Thanksgiving related videos.
Diamond White - X Factor 2012
This is a Thanksgiving video made by NigaHiga last year.
Since he's still editing the video now, I'll share it after he uploaded it.
This year's Thanksgiving, I want to give thanks to my family and friends, people in Manipal that are friendly, vegetables that are cheap, nice people all around Manipal, friends that cares about me, lecturers, my bed, my parents for giving me expenses and pay for me to study my ass off.
I don't filter before I blog.
I don't filter my blog.
There's no point in filtering because if I filtered and think before I post something, my post is not about my thinking anymore!
I don't mean to hurt anyone's feeling or to critic anyone.
I'm just voicing out my views and thoughts.
If you want to assume that I am talking about you, go ahead.
(If the shoe fits)
Just be my batch mate.
That way, you don't need to be in my visual field and trying to get my attention.
I don't need to ignore you.
Everything will be just fine.
I won't be hating you.
My day won't be ruin.
Everything will be just fine.
Welcome to my blog!
No matter you are my persistent reader, or stalker, or just a passer by, be sure to follow my blog because you will never know what random sh*t I will post in this blog. *smileyface*
You are more than welcome to stalk me.
For those that already know who am I, you are welcome to stalk on.
For those that don't know me, I'm sorry because I won't reveal my real identity on this blog. There's too much details in this blog and it might lead to misunderstandings.
Last time, I use to post my daily picture on this blog. But since I have my real twitter account now, I didn't post those pictures on this blog because that again, will reveal my identity.
If I am so afraid that people will know who am I in real life, why don't I create a blog with my real name?
That's because my grammar sucks and I don't want my friends to know I owe a blog.
I'm kinda shy about the idea of having a blog. Still.
Just to let you know, I will not be using my Twitter account anymore since I've moved on to my real twitter account.
Thanks for reading.
This blog is create for me to express my feelings because I don't have friends to talk to.
Just kidding.
I would like to use this blog as a place for me to express my feelings and I can also learn a lot by writing.
So, thanks for reading all this while.
For those that want to stalk me, you can continue doing that.
For those who just want to drop by and say hi, feel free to leave a comment below.
I will get back to you.
For those who are interested in my life just because I am a medical student, you can click the link that I'd tagged "medical student".
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Thanks for reading.
Make sure you follow my blog!
Gain of followers will make my day. :D
I know you treasures us being together. I treasures you too. I miss you so much. I miss you so much. I miss you so much.
It's your birthday next week and I can't stop thinking about you.
How I wish that I am there beside you.
How I would like to crack my head thinking what yo do for your birthday.
I love you so much.
I miss you so much.
I'm shedding tears right now.
I hate to let this feeling out again.
I hate to feel helpless and do nothing but to miss you.
I don't want to continue this topic.
I don't need to show the world how much I miss us.
I don't need to prove that I miss you.
I miss you all the time.
I don't need to remind myself how much you meant to me.
I'm gonna end this post because I can't take this.
the guy talked to me as though i don't miss you at all. he doesn't even know how much it hurts to leave malaysia. he makes me really unhappy. you can't talk to me like that. i know he cared about you. but, excuse me, i do care and miss her too okay? don't walk around and assume that you are the only one that cared about her.
just because you have a penis doesn't prove that i care less for her.
just so you know.
If you don't know me, and you refuse to know me, I'm totally fine about it.
But this blog is a place for me to express myself.
If you are going to judge me base on this blog, go ahead and live in your shallow minded world and think bad about me.
You never know how nice I can or will be if you are once my friend.
But if you are still judging me based on my pass, then I can't do anything about it.
Everyone stalks, everyone has a girl crush.
And I'm open about it.
I'm not hiding anything.
If you come and approach me and ask me.
I would answer you.
What ever that you are curious about, just ask.
Of course I will answer you.
Because you are my batch mate!
I'm sad because you are judging me.
And now, you judge me even more because you are thinking that I don't think that stalking you are wrong.
You should be flattered that I stalked you.
To be frank, I stalked a lot of other people.
Social media is a place where people can know you better or even pretend that they know you.
Yes I stalked you, so what.
SO WHAT.
If you want to continue to keep a distance from me, go ahead, I'll just do my stuff.
Pfft.
I don't care what you think about me.
I don't care how obvious you will make it appears to be.
I don't care well you hide the feeling of disgust towards me.
If you want to comment about this blog, go ahead.
This blog is the only place I can express my feeling wholeheartedly.
If you don't get my blog, then you should probably stop reading it.
*peace*
There's two types of tachycardia.
Pathological and Physiological.
Pathological tachycardia is due to lack of oxygen in your body.
The type of tachycardia you gave me is different.
My body is not lack of oxygen, my body require more oxygen for me to keep myself alert because you are walking right beside me.
I put in effort to walk slower, you put in effort to walk faster, so that both of us are walking at the same pace.
I like you very much.
Hope that we can do it again.
The guy that I like most in my real life is Sheep.
I like him so much.
I like him most.
He's my number one right now.
Although he never approach me, but I just know that somehow, both of us are making the effort to get stuck in the same place, same time, with only both of us around.
We don't know how to start a topic because we are both shy and we both know we are good person.
Maybe he is in a relationship before.
But all I know is he is a very very nice guy.
Why can't we go Bangalore together?
You can get your stuffs and I can go MG road and shop for my stuffs.
All I can do is sitting here fantasizing about you, about us.
You are the one that have the power that control how fast my heart will beat.
My heart beat faster for you.
I like you. A lot.
